Wednesday, March 14, 2012


A couple of signs that have hung on my wall for the past 30 some odd years. SXW

Monday, March 5, 2012

Cancer Sucks!!!

The word itself strikes fear in many. It seems to be the modern day plague. And the treatments for it are like something out of the dark ages. Chemo really falls into this category. Nothing more than glorified rat poison. But it has helped to save many lives. Someday they will be doing things to boost our immune systems to rid our bodies of this disease. Hopefully that day will be sooner than later.
I mentioned on my other blog recently that I had hit a speed bump. That bump led the doctors to finding another bump. A spot in my upper left lung. About 3 weeks ago they told me that it was lung cancer.
I'm no stranger to the big C, having had male breast cancer in 2002 which was at stage 3B. Surgery, chemo and a lot of radiation removed that from my body. This is a totally different bug. Non small cell lung cancer. I will go in this wendesday March 7th to have about 2/3 rds of my left lung removed. They will also be able to 'stage' the cancer by removing the lymph nodes in my chest cavity. I am hopeful that they are negative for cancer. Thus it is yet to be seen what my treatment plan will be. Xavier

Thursday, March 1, 2012

A Higher Power

I have always been a 'doubting thomas' about everything. So it is no wonder I would have problems with God. I had to be dragged, kicking and screaming, into the light.
For me it was a round about way. My drinking led me to the AA groups. There i was able to believe in people who were turning thier lives around. So for a number of years the groups became my Higher Power. I was able to see others making drastic changes in thier lives by following that simple 12 step program.
And then there was that time I read a statement that said, "who are you, to say there is no God". Another thing that helped was that AA allowed me to have a God of my understanding, not a God that someone else was trying to impose on me.
I had always had problems with organised religions with all thier flaws. And with all the different religions how could there be so many Gods.
Today I have gotten comfortable with the concept of a Higher Power which is more in line with some of the nature based beliefs from the past. I think 'Love' is a basic part of this power that I have come to believe in. And that we are here to learn and grow into being better people. And what we don't learn the first time we keep going thru one life to anther until we do. SXW